Tonight I walked to give my knees and ankle rest since they have been bothering me. I couldn't help but notice how ironic some of the lyrics coming out of the iPod were to this journey. Here's a few of them:
- keep the faith
- just hang on, a new day is coming
- the old me is dead and gone
- everybody needs somebody
- my baby don't mess around
- thank you for loving me
- I've been traveling down this road to long, just trying to find my way back home
I think we all find inspiration in music and how it relates to different periods/stages in our life. Tonight was a reminder. It also inspired me to listen to the words Jillian says on The Biggest Loser that we all have to confront, "What got you here and why do you want to do this?" and most importantly, "Are you truly happy?" I have known for quite some time that I am an emotional eater, who isn't?
I thought a lot about the what got me here. It was a bit emotional and I even had a few tears fall down my cheek. There are still some things in my life that I have to confront and deal with that I just don't have the courage to do yet. A lot has to do with loneliness I felt in my past. Abandonment, loneliness, loss of trust and security, and dealing with different unhealthy relationships had a lot to do with what got me here. The love I have found in Thomas and as a mother has filled me with more joy than I ever knew possible. I focus a lot on the present and what is good right now, but these things I have to confront still tug at my heart and I hope that through this journey I can work through them.
What a walk I had tonight...
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